What a week! I don’t know about you but mine has been crazy. My on-again off-again PhD is currently off-again. I’m trying to embrace the time to myself but the uncertainty is killing me. I feel churned up inside and generally a bit lost and directionless. I know, I know. I run an awesome yoga studio, I do some volunteer work and I have a lovely boy to care for. Why do I need more in my life?
In some ways I don’t. But something in me wants the intellectual challenge of a PhD. To me, doing a PhD is taking 3 years to indulge a passion. It’s what I’ve been psyching myself up for. I’ve been planning and preparing for it for the last 6 months. And, if I can’t have that, then shouldn’t I be working in a “proper” job?
So I dug around, and found an “embracing uncertainty” activity from last year’s Making Canberra Happy and I’m working through that.
If you’re also struggling with uncertainty in your life, you might like to take a look. This activity combines both problem solving and mindfulness to address the thoughts and feelings that go with uncertainty.
Here’s what you do:
1. Write down 5 things that are on your mind at the moment.
2. Now, go down your list and make a note of which ones you can change and which ones you can’t change.
3. For the ones that you can change, write a single action you can take to impact on them (make sure it starts with a verb!)
4. For the ones that you can’t change, take a moment to sit with the uncertainty, as uncomfortable as it might be.
Be mindfully aware of the sensations you experience in your body with this sense of uncertainty. Let yourself go deeply into these feelings and sensations, taking a mindful approach of awareness without judgement. Allow the sensations to expand and intensify. Allow them to fade. Allow them to do whatever they do. Notice where your mind goes. Then, come back to your body and remind yourself that you can’t control everything – these things are outside of your control.